Music Monday

 Music is a huge part of Tommy and I's relationship. Its something we bonded over in the beginning and still connect with now.  I will be posting the lyrics to a song and what it means to me every Monday (hopefully). At least until I run out of interesting things to say (Or I forget). Make sense? Feel free to do your own but please link back to me and add your site to the MckLinky below!

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Fidelity by Regina Spektor

Fidelity - Regina Spektor

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting by heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart


This song kind of strikes a chord with me in a way I'm not so fond of. I tend to protect myself. Protect my heart from people. I hold back to keep from getting hurt. In her case, she let someone in and got burned. I think that is mostly what I am afraid of too. That If I let go and let people in, that I could get burned. Thing is, I know in my heart that getting burned is part of the story of life. Its part of what makes you you.

Blame my childhood, blame my past relationships. Whatever it is, I really sometimes wish that I could let it go. Not to say that I am incapable of having close relationships, its just hard for me. Hard to trust and just let go with people. Something I need to work on for sure.