Mommy Confessions

Ok, so we all have them. I have decided its time to stop keeping them to myself in hopes that other mommies will realize that none of us are perfect. Here are my dirty little secrets for the week in hopes it will encourage me to be better. What are yours?

~ Last Sunday, we cleaned out our garage to the point where we can actually fit the van in there and not risk injury or death by falling piles of debris. On Monday, I discovered another perk of having the car in the garage. Now, I can get the boys dressed and ready to go, buckle them into their carseats and then gather up the things we need and get myself ready! Its fabulous. Usually they had undressed or made messes on their clothes by the time I got myself ready to go and now, they can't. Best part is, the garage used to be sealed off to make a room so it is really well insulated so they don't get cold sitting there waiting. They just sit and talk to each other or play games or chill. (Don't freak out though, the house is a ranch and I can hear them from my room if they need me.)

~ I got schooled on manners by D this morning. We were sitting and eating breakfast together and after he had finished his second Ikea cinnamon roll, he started poking his fingers around on mine and picking the icing off. I told him to stop poking his fingers in my breakfast and he replied "Thats not nice Mama. You supposed to share with me!". Le sigh. What can I say, he was right.

~ My kids have way too many toys. Way too many. They have so many that they tend to just dump them all over the play room floor and then go bother my underwear drawer because they are overwhelmed. I need to go through them and get them ready for a garage sale but every time I do that, they find my box and put them back in the playroom. I'm going to have to find a better box hiding spot I suppose.

~ I lost my shit yesterday. To the point I had to lock myself in the closet and hide for a few minutes. Its been a stressful month and while I am not the overly emotion showing, cry when it hurts kind of person, I couldn't take it any more. So, I locked my self in and had a good, snot ridden sob while the boys banged on the door trying to get in. Eventually I let them in and they sat in the floor of my closet with me and we sang some songs and they snuggled in to my chest and I felt much better.


What are your confessions for the week?

Silly Monster

My little man loves to do two things. Dance and have his picture taken...


He also found himself a cool new hat!

Too Big

Last night, I went in to kiss my boys goodnight before I went to bed just like I always do. K first, then D. They never stir apart from the occasional returned kiss before flopping back down and going back to dreamland.

Today, we got up and were getting ready to leave to get some shopping done. We needed milk so bad I was willing to get out in the cold weather. When I went to button K's pants, they just wouldn't go. He was just too big. Then, D cried when I put his shoes on. Crying they were pinching his toes, which they were, but they didn't when he wore them last weekend.They have both been at that growing thing again.

At nap time, it hit me: My boys are getting big. Big sized and big mature. I just can't believe how much they have grown since their birthdays. It just seems so surreal. When did that happen guys? They were so little. So little and helpless. Just, what, last week? Its like I walked into some kind of twilight zone.

Not a bad twilight zone particularly, but the kind where you wake up and realize you haven't had to raise your voice at them in a few days. They play by themselves and with each other without fighting. Where, you tell them to stop once, and they do. Well, okay, for the most part on that second one.  

They have such strong personalities. D is the independent, free spirit that never lets anything get him down, learning as he plays. K is the attached at the hip kid, always watching what you are doing and always learning so he can copy it later.

They love to play with each other more and more every day too. They play cars together or they snuggle their "baby dolls" and then trade and snuggle each others. They snuggle each other on the couch while watching a movie. If the movie gets scary to D, he pulls K in and kisses the top of his head and tells him "Is okay K, don't be scared". They follow each other around at the playground and make up silly chase games at the house. Games that K always loses because he is short.

Of course they still love to snuggle in with their Mama. They both check in with me on a regular basis if I am not in the floor with them. One right after the other and if one comes, both come. Every time.

Still. Still.Too big. I am not ready for them to be big boys. They are supposed to stay babies forever. I guess they will though. Stay my babies forever that is. My Mama's boys. They are so dynamic. So smart. So big.

Slow down time, I need more of you with my babies!