Lucky

I am the luckiest Mama on the planet. These little boys, man. These little boys have a hold on me like I would never even have thought possible. They really are my little princes. My little Mama's boys through and through.

The best part to me is being able to stay home with them. I get to spend every moment with them. I get to see all of their milestones. I get to teach them things. I love knowing what they are singing or talking about because I was the one who taught them or at least was there with them. I love knowing their moods so intently and being able to adjust to them and what they need day to day.

Are there days where they are driving me crazy and I envy the working moms? Oh yeah. Is it hard? Oh hell yes. Some days I have to do the things that working moms do only I have two little tag alongs pulling me in opposite directions every ten feet. Add in the home school activities we do and trying to keep the house clean and it takes fifteen minutes to answer one email.

Granted I have it a little different than most SAHMs because I have absolutely no help during the day. Ever. Its like being a single, stay home mom. Two of the hardest jobs on the planet simultaneously. Dancing to the tune of two little tyrants, one of which can't even tell you what he wants half the time, can get old. Really old...

Then.. they crawl in your lap, kiss you on the cheek and say "I love you, Mama" and all of the frustration and the exhaustion melts away. Suddenly its all worth it again. The juggle. I wouldn't trade one single afternoon of trying to fit the park in to our hectic schedule for any amount of money or glory. Not one single second.

I hope that I never have to make that choice. Not until they are old enough to do their own thing. Of course I would if it meant not being able to meet their physical needs. Food and shelter win. I would in a heartbeat. Its a choice that so many moms make. The need for the money wins out to the desire to stay home. Some moms just don't want to stay home with their kids. Its not something I will ever understand but I can definitely respect. You have to do what you have to do to stay sane and happy.

For me though, there is no greater happiness than taking care of my boys full time. I am the luckiest woman on the planet to have this literal once in a lifetime job. They grow up so fast. Fame and fortune will just have to wait for me.