Music Monday

 Music is a huge part of Tommy and I's relationship. Its something we bonded over in the beginning and still connect with now.  I will be posting the lyrics to a song and what it means to me every Monday (hopefully). At least until I run out of interesting things to say (Or I forget). Make sense? Feel free to do your own but please link back to me and add your site to the MckLinky below!


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Bulletproof by La Roux (Hyper Crush Remix)






Been there done that messed around,
I'm having fun don't put me down
I'll never let you
sweep me off my feet.


I won't let you in again,
The messages I've tried to send,
My information's just not going in.


Burning bridges shore to shore,
I'll break away from something more
I'm not to not to love
until it's cheap.


Been there done that messed around
I'm having fun don't put me down,
I'll never let you
sweep me off my feet.


This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.


I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
To walk away from something
when it's dead.


Do do do your dirty words
Come out to play when you are heard
There's certain things
that should be left unsaid.


Tick tick tick tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out.


I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do
is fill me up with doubt.


This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.


This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof


(Instrumental)


This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof,
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.






This song caught my ear a month or so back and I added it to my playlist on my phone. Its pretty infectious and even D started to like it quite a bit. When my sister came to visit, her and D would sing it in the car together and ever since she left, he walks around the house singing it. He calls it his "Aunti song". It wasn't until a few days ago that I really got to thinking about the lyrics. What woman hasn't had that feeling? The feeling of invincibility? Especially when purging toxic people and even ideas and ideals from their life. The feeling of empowerment. 


I have, in general always had a pretty hard shell. Case hardened even in the last decade. Bulletproof. People rarely bother me because I rarely let them get close. The exception of course being my family and friends (you know who you are). I am uncannily good at reading people. It has often been my saving grace but it has also been my downfall. You have to be able to protect yourself from certain things but being hurt is also a bit of how we learn. So, is bulletproof always a good thing? I am thinking not. How do you change that though? 


*Sorry for the ramble... I wrote this at 2:15am.