Baby snuggles could heal the world

Little boy that is. I just spent the last 3 hours snuggling with my boys while they slept. It started outwith just me and D after I picked him up from school. He wanted to nap in our room so I gave in but told him he had to go to sleep or it was back to his room.

"Otay mommy. I go sweep."

Was his response. I giggled and then he giggled. We lay there talking for a few minutes about what he had done at preschool this morning. Apparently one of his little friends got in trouble for shoving him. Sigh. So, I told him was time to be quiet and go to sleep and he did get quiet. What he didn't do was get still. Wiggle wiggle wiggle monster. Finally he sat up and said "Mama, you wanna snuggle me?". The answer to which was of course a resounding "Sure baby, come here.". Sure enough, he curled up into my chest like a tiny baby would and a few minutes later he was out and so was I.

I woke up when he started to wiggle and heard K start to squeak from his bassinet. I slid my way carefully away from D,  got the little monkey and brought him back to bed with us. After he nursed he went back to sleep.

I needed this today. I NEEDED it. Its like they know sometimes when I am having a bad day. Today I found out about two people passing within a few minutes. One was baby Layla Grace. If you haven't read her story, you should. The other was one of my sister's friends. Plus just the general funk I have been in lately. I guess it has all come crashing in lately. I had a lot of stress built up from when T was working two jobs that is feeling a little misplaced as of late. Its so weird to have him home more. Not bad weird, just weird. Plus I have this impending sense of doom. No clue where that comes from except for having to replace both of our cars already this year along with all the other unfortunate weirdness. You would think I would be used to that by now though. lol

Today though, for those few hours I snuggled my boys, my troubles melted away. I felt relaxed and normal again. They healed me. Even if that sounds totally corny its true. Those boys mean the world to me and I am beginning to think they feel the same about me. They like me! They really like me!